My Heart Beats Alone ~ a.k.a. "Soulmate"

It is not uncommon for one to seek a “soulmate” within their lifetime. It is even safe to say that each and every living heart longs for that twin to beat harmoniously in sync with its own pulsating rhythm. Whether that desire is verbally expressed or kept canned through the restraints of silence does not change the fact that that longing exist. My heart is no different.

As a child, my heart was young, agile and fit to take the abuse of being stretched out of proportion from time to time. Each muscle was filled with self-confidence, stamina and enthusiasm, thus giving it the illusion that it was unstoppable, unbeatable and ultimately, immortal. When pushed to the limit, my heart would beat a little harder and race a little faster, even desperately at times, yet always seeming to make it to the victory dance as a conqueror of life’s challenges.

However, as the years rolled on, my heart occasionally would pant with exhaustion from the unforeseen obstacles that it was forced to encounter. It would manage to gain strength to some degree by recalling victories from the past. My heart unknowingly began its decent into denial by not accepting the reality that though it had increased in wisdom via experience, it lacked the strength and endurance it once possessed. At the same time, it instinctively began to search for that “soulmate”, that companion heart that would provide the backup support when its own worn and scarred tissue began to falter under extreme pressure.

Based on the knowledge gained by society, a heart must possess certain characteristics in order to qualify as being a “soulmate”. Those requirements consist of being kind, compassionate, sincere, understanding, honest and and traditionally, of the opposite sex. Any heart that has begun to search for its “soulmate” knows that to find such, it must be prepared to stand unguarded. Through experience we gain knowledge. Through knowledge we gain wisdom. Wisdom tells my heart what to look for in a “soulmate” and how to choose wisely. However, the knowledge gained through my experience inevitably leaves my heart paralyzed by the mere thought of being left vulnerable and exposed.

Being confronted with this conflict causes me to look deep within my own self. My conclusion… The world has been my classroom. The inhabitants are its students. Life’s experience is the textbook. Having completed “Intro To Life, Vol. 1”, I’ve learned to love and respect myself, recognize the pitfalls of life BEFORE I fall victim to them and march valiantly into my future with my head held high holding the banner of high standards knowing that my confidence will attract another student of life of suma cum laude caliber to share in my ultimate pursuit of happiness… True Love… a.k.a. “Soulmate”.

Written By: T. Donovan Simons

(c) 2012 ~ Taken from "The Inner Voice"